And i get to kiss this hot man EVErYDAY! =)
Did I marry a movie star? No! But he looks pretty close and he's my HOT Man!
And i get to kiss this hot man EVErYDAY! =)
Christmas Day 2007
Family Shot
Again Nalia with her doll - Baby Alive=)-- RubyyyyyyThis day was way Lax with one of the best turkeys that I ever had.
Christmas Eve
While still in vancouver.. This is Sammy with trav and Nalia-Trav can just act so "white" ha
Nalia thinks that she has her own baby alive--- Miss ROO ROO
Nalia singing the spider song.. "went up the water spout, down came the rain and washed the spider out"
Nalia and Ruby with NANAWe had such a great Christmas !Here are some pictures to share!
Christmas In Vancouver..Taking a Bath with COUSINS! FUN FUN!!
the look on her face shows howmuch fun she is having!!
i dont think they are used to seeing a Girl!!=) ha
Sammy And Isaiah-- Brotherly LOVE
They all 3 just love water so why not put them all together!
Us at our friends wedding..i was a bridesmaide, i wore COOL bright red shoes
My friend ashley got married on dec. 14... when her
You can leave me a message now
Finally you can leave me a comment.. A nice guy set it up on my computer.... So even if i dont know you leave me your thoughts,,,, I like to hear what ya think,....
maybe that way i can have more link under my "friends section" --=)
Going back to step one--
We have some great friends who we met up with to talk about and think thru a pretty cool jouney travand i are about to start.. the jouney of new friendships...memories... Denny and Abby Bain have been a help for Starting a good journey to healing in our relationship-- With marriage comes alot of baggage from both sides and trav and i are realizing alot about ourselves and pulling things out by the core.. we are attacking the cause not jus treating the "fight". We need friends to draw close to at this time... This is not a time (anymore) to worry about our marriage but a time to REJOICE for we are beginning a healing process that will transform who i am and who trav is and who we are as a married couple. I want to respect that man with all that i am and from this point i will die to my self for christ so that i know how to be a better wife and mom.... Restoration has begun.. i can fully experience Gods Grace and Strength and Blessings.. Friendships....!
I thank abby and denny for speaking bold and being REAL...Man real people are hard to come by....My new favorite artist
Her name is Stina Persson. She is a bit sensual but it a balanced way. It hits a spot in every married mommy-- =)
This is a X Rated posting
i am one of those people that wonder what things look like.... well if you are too here is a clot of tissue,,, if you are a male and grossed out just simply scroll down...... who knows this may have been a part of my baby and he is a part of me. just not a pretty picture...so bare with me..for those of you w/a weak tummy....(denny--=)...)i made it small so if you want to see it you gotta click on it...So over this wonderful past weekend i thought that i was about to die. I started bleeding alot after my D&C and passing rather large clots... they said that they were maybe going to have to do another D&C...thanks god they didnt..they ended up giving me somthing called metherogine,i know that i totally mis-spelled that.... but they gave me a double dose to make my uterus contract to stop bleeding and if there was any left over tissue it would get it out... well alot more tissue came out,,,to Save you all the details it was MUCH worse pain than LABOR and i had my baby naturally... i thought i was dying and the CHINESE doctor that told me this was normal i told her this is not normal and that i am dying and if i dont actually die then i will go to the kitchen and slit my wrist cause i cant take the pain.....
After 2 visits to the emergency room and after all the pan meds they gave me im here.. ALIVE.. oh and at my doc appt on monday the Asian on call doc wanted me to come in cause she thought i was not stable sounding on the phone and thought i was suicidal.. Ha --- far from that....just though i saw the bright lights of heaven...
well im here and today is the first day that i can THINK!
Pretty girl
This is at my friends rehearsal dinner.
looking for the perfect tree
nalia took this pic of herself
just exploring
We went tree hunting and here are the pictures to show the fun!
It done! FINALLY!!!
So i had my D&C yesterday -- the surgery part went well but afterwards I never saw so much blood.... Well not since I had Nalia. The doc and nurse told me light bleeding and mild period like cramping.. Ha YEA RIGHT! I bled thru the HUGE DIAPER PAD and thru my undies and pants by the time that I got home and when I changed my pad bled thru that and onto my dads leather chair where it left a lighter mark in the leather where the ring of blood was... SICK i know!
The cramps were not cramps.. were more like contractions and i had my baby naturally so I can handle that kind of pain... WOW what a night......
The best news of all was that the doc didn't think that it was a Molar pregnancy and she cant confirm til the tests come back from the lab... also they could not save my sac with baby in it cause i started bleeding too bad during the D&C..BUMMER-- i wanted to see him.. oh well i will someday...
If this is not a molar pregnancy in a month or two i will be back in the game of pregnancy.. WOOOO HOOOOOOOO!
Man i lasted with this miscarriage til i wad 13 weeks and to start a whole new first trimester.--WOW !
Something REAL COOL!! Nalia went potty TWO TIMES today in a BIG GIRL POTTY! hoping we have this done by the time the 2nd baby comes! fingers crossed!
ALso my husband and I have grown so much tru this miscarriage... the kind of growing that you feel why did i marry this person and how are we going to get thru this... Im sure that "some" of you NEVER feel that way.. well i have and im sure will more times thru our marriage... just being honest... But thru this all i realize how much i love that man and how i could not get thru this with out him.. I just love HIM! But we have grown so so so so strong thru this and ITs A GOD THING-- I would never take any of this back-- these are the growing moments that define me and who i am as a wife mom and woman of God!
Thanks Linda (trav Mom) for our great chat.. we will talk more.. you give me a great out look on your son---
Thanks mom, Jess, and Abby for coming to see me and be there at my D&C --
-still praying about direction for nursing school Abby
_ my friend Jvon just moved back here from Denver to move in a month to Australia where she once lived for 2 years to go to Hill Song bible college.--I love her- she is a good friend!
The cramps were not cramps.. were more like contractions and i had my baby naturally so I can handle that kind of pain... WOW what a night......
The best news of all was that the doc didn't think that it was a Molar pregnancy and she cant confirm til the tests come back from the lab... also they could not save my sac with baby in it cause i started bleeding too bad during the D&C..BUMMER-- i wanted to see him.. oh well i will someday...
If this is not a molar pregnancy in a month or two i will be back in the game of pregnancy.. WOOOO HOOOOOOOO!
Man i lasted with this miscarriage til i wad 13 weeks and to start a whole new first trimester.--WOW !
Something REAL COOL!! Nalia went potty TWO TIMES today in a BIG GIRL POTTY! hoping we have this done by the time the 2nd baby comes! fingers crossed!
ALso my husband and I have grown so much tru this miscarriage... the kind of growing that you feel why did i marry this person and how are we going to get thru this... Im sure that "some" of you NEVER feel that way.. well i have and im sure will more times thru our marriage... just being honest... But thru this all i realize how much i love that man and how i could not get thru this with out him.. I just love HIM! But we have grown so so so so strong thru this and ITs A GOD THING-- I would never take any of this back-- these are the growing moments that define me and who i am as a wife mom and woman of God!
Thanks Linda (trav Mom) for our great chat.. we will talk more.. you give me a great out look on your son---
Thanks mom, Jess, and Abby for coming to see me and be there at my D&C --
-still praying about direction for nursing school Abby
_ my friend Jvon just moved back here from Denver to move in a month to Australia where she once lived for 2 years to go to Hill Song bible college.--I love her- she is a good friend!
The time is a comin---
Stilll cramping in my ovaries....not sure what to expect other than i have to be all the way put out- i had knee surgery and watched it,, so i have never been fully under. the doc told me that there is no way to fully numb the uterous so that is why it would be best to fully put me under... but i may still try. i want to see the little baby inside even if it is just tissue...then they can fully put me out...
I still have people telling my CONGRATS for being pregnant. that does not bother me and I dont hate it,,, dont get me wrong it remindes me that Im not pregnant... But at least i can show then Christ and tell them that i TRUST Gods plan even when it does not make sense... A testimony is in so much our conversation.. of all the times i miss Im glad that I can catch this one... Bitter Sweet....makes me sweetly broken but only to fall into my Fathers Arms... God is Good and I can still say Life is GOOD!
Date is set-- TUE Dec 11 1:30
So the doc today told me that I have cysts growing on my placenta and ovaries... I am not sure if i am spelling things right so bare with me now--
I am tired of all of this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was so fed up that i had to wait til next week when i was told that my appt was on thur or fri-- i told the doc that i will personally remove the baby and tissue and personally hand it to her... that just shows how tired i am of all of this..........
Whelp--- off to my make- up party!
PRAISE GOD ABBY AND DENNY SAW THEIR SWEET BABY HEARTBEAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am tired of all of this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was so fed up that i had to wait til next week when i was told that my appt was on thur or fri-- i told the doc that i will personally remove the baby and tissue and personally hand it to her... that just shows how tired i am of all of this..........
Whelp--- off to my make- up party!
PRAISE GOD ABBY AND DENNY SAW THEIR SWEET BABY HEARTBEAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Molar WHAT!??????
So i had a appt with my doc to take about taking the dead baby out of my body since i waiting 4 weeks.... but before we do that we had to take a pregnancy test to confirm that Im not preg with another baby. This does not mean that i had twins that one died this means a fresh pregnancy different from the dead one....
As dr.rampton was putting the duck beaks in my down below the nurse walked in and said that the test came back POSITIVE!
Rampton said that my cervix is as shut as can be. He had me go in for another ultra sound and he took some blood to know my horomone levels... HCG levels....before i left he told me that i could either be pregnant for have a MOLAR pregnancy... WHAT THE HELL...is what i was thinking......
SOOOOOO......got ultra sound and no baby but my placenta is growing and that is a sign of molar pregnancy. its 11:11 on wed morning and called a second time know my level results and they are having problems with their system...AHHHHHH!!
The doctors that i have called cant get me in til fri or next week sometime..leave it to small twn doctors.. A NP told me to go to OHSU to get this taken care of..if left untreated can be VERY VERY VERY BAd.!
Great i have my makeup party tomorrow and dont want to cancel!
Also they told me i have to get a D&C..what the heck man.. . leaves no room for natural ..but they need to test the tissue of the baby and placenta.
My doc told me that he has been delivering babies for 30 years and have never had one of his patients w/ a Molar pregnancy! What?!
So now the question that everyone ASKS!!!!!!! what is a molar pregnancy!
well i know that if i have a molar pregnancy that mine is a partial one ,, not complete since i have a baby in my body...
Partial Mole
This most frequently occurs when two sperm fertilize the same egg. There may be partial placentas, membranes or even a fetus present in a partial mole. However, there are usually genetic problems with the baby. Rarely, a partial mole will exist with twin pregnancy, however, the other twin rarely survives.
Symptoms include:
Increased nausua and vomiting-- i have this one but no PUKING
Vaginal bleeding
Increased hCG levels
Rapidly growing uterus
Pregnancy induced hypertension prior to 24 weeks
No fetal movement or heart tone detected
Hyperthyroidism -- DAMN asain specialist who told me that i am ok to get pregnant even though i had a form of this! I really do like asains but not this one
Pulmonary Embolization
As dr.rampton was putting the duck beaks in my down below the nurse walked in and said that the test came back POSITIVE!
Rampton said that my cervix is as shut as can be. He had me go in for another ultra sound and he took some blood to know my horomone levels... HCG levels....before i left he told me that i could either be pregnant for have a MOLAR pregnancy... WHAT THE HELL...is what i was thinking......
SOOOOOO......got ultra sound and no baby but my placenta is growing and that is a sign of molar pregnancy. its 11:11 on wed morning and called a second time know my level results and they are having problems with their system...AHHHHHH!!
The doctors that i have called cant get me in til fri or next week sometime..leave it to small twn doctors.. A NP told me to go to OHSU to get this taken care of..if left untreated can be VERY VERY VERY BAd.!
Great i have my makeup party tomorrow and dont want to cancel!
Also they told me i have to get a D&C..what the heck man.. . leaves no room for natural ..but they need to test the tissue of the baby and placenta.
My doc told me that he has been delivering babies for 30 years and have never had one of his patients w/ a Molar pregnancy! What?!
So now the question that everyone ASKS!!!!!!! what is a molar pregnancy!
well i know that if i have a molar pregnancy that mine is a partial one ,, not complete since i have a baby in my body...
Partial Mole
This most frequently occurs when two sperm fertilize the same egg. There may be partial placentas, membranes or even a fetus present in a partial mole. However, there are usually genetic problems with the baby. Rarely, a partial mole will exist with twin pregnancy, however, the other twin rarely survives.
Symptoms include:
Increased nausua and vomiting-- i have this one but no PUKING
Vaginal bleeding
Increased hCG levels
Rapidly growing uterus
Pregnancy induced hypertension prior to 24 weeks
No fetal movement or heart tone detected
Hyperthyroidism -- DAMN asain specialist who told me that i am ok to get pregnant even though i had a form of this! I really do like asains but not this one
Pulmonary Embolization
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