look at this..

http://safemama.com/sheets/wipes.pdf

lavendas great shots.. LOVE THEM

2 faves so far... maybe i think...

This is one of my favorite pictures.. i got up to go pee at 2am and saw this.. grabbed camera....

My sweet Adah was so low in my belly that she came out with a swollen crooked nose.. but never looked so cute..

more pictures.....

38 weeks pregnant....





4 hours after not being pregnant...


people post pictures of a growing belly why not post one of a deflating one...
ill post again in a week...

some shots.....

random shots...

me in labor....
trav handing me our sweet baby girl that he caught..

picture of Adah'Jane from camera phone...

Adah'Jane Pearl Wagar is HERE!

VERY FAST BIRTH
born at 5:23 pm. Left home @ 9:40 pm
6lbs 6oz
20 3/4 long

details and pictures to come.
she looks like nalia
her nose is swollen and to one side cause she was so low for so long
i didnt tear ,,,WOO HOO


I am on a HIGH



the pic above is during labor.. Lauren Hurt did WONDERFUL photography. will post more later..in my hand is my pee stick that told me i was preg along time ago.
hope you can read this and it makes sense..bye

I came home

3 things

1. lavenda is having a GIRL SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO COOL... YAHOO...2. I am selling my car.. Want to buy it?
3. Bloody show is here,contractions too.. but nothing that's going to put me into labor ..yet..But I could put Nickelodeon out of business with all the bloody Gak.. Gross I know...

Adah'Jane Pearl

So YES.. Pearl is Adah'Janes middle name. I love it and when I first loved the name is when trav and I were dating/engaged he would write me letters and address it Pearl. I love it.. Funny thing is that he does not remember ever calling me that ...but that is a whole other story... so... I love the name cause pearls are rare.. the real one are authentic...The process of how they are made and formed is pretty cool and unique,, (kinda like growing a baby)A "natural pearl" is one that forms without any human intervention at all, in the wild, and is very rare. Many hundreds of pearl oysters or pearl mussels have to be gathered and opened, and thus killed, in order to find even one wild pearl, and for many centuries that was the only way pearls were obtained. This was the main reason why pearls fetched such extraordinary prices in the past.

I think of this the same way that Christ is always refining us and molding and shaping us,, But its the "rare" that let him do his work selflessly through us and his beauty shines and that itself is rare..but the treasures are far greater than anything "earthly"...

So Adah(means Adored)Jane (God is Gracious)and Pearl... well read on friends.

Below are some thing i found on pearls.. pretty cool...


The finest quality natural pearls have been highly valued as gemstones and objects of beauty for many centuries, and because of this, the word pearl became a metaphor for something very rare, very fine, very admirable and very valuable.


The pearl is the oldest known gem, and for many centuries it was considered the most valuable. Unlike all gems, the pearl is organic matter derived from a living creature - oysters and mollusks.


Over time, the pearl has become the symbol of purity and innocence and it is often sewn into bridal gowns, or worn as jewelry by the bride.

38 weeks....

So i am still pregnant...
This pregnancy has lasted longer than Nalias did...
But i am not to the point where i am like "I AM DONE BEING PREGNANT"
I am not the most comfortable, ribs burn cause feet are smashed into them...pubic bone is about broken i think... but I can still feel this baby in me telling me she is here and SHE is CHOOSING when she enters the world.. oh gosh i thought nalia was strong willed...ha ...

Cramping--Bring it on!

Cramping has started. its up there like when I miscarried...
I went swimming this morning,,,went to the gym...then got a intense pedicure and foot rub making sure she hits all my pressure points for inducing labor.

Got a organic outfit for Adah'Jane --nothing but organic on that sweet soft skin fresh out of the womb!

well see if this keeps going or dies down...time will tell....

BEYYYYYYYOOOOONNNNDDDDDD Disappointment

SO the GREAT WONERDERFUL news is that Missy Went into Labor and will soon be knowing if she is having a BOY OR GIRL.. SOOOO EXCITING!I got a call at 7am saying that MIssys water broke.

The Bummer news is that i dont have anyone to deliver my baby at home ....

So the normal questions i hear ill answer for you:


Why cant Missy just deliver your baby after she has hers?:..Hmmmm well.. cause SHE JUST HAD A BABY!!...I mean I want her to be able to bond with her baby and not feel like someone has a expectation of her... PLUS i feel that at any moment I could go into labor so only a week if that to recover before she delivers mine in not going to be ok with me..let alone her I am sure.also the first 10 days are so important for bonding that i would never ask her to cut that short.

Why didnt you have a back-up Mid-wife?
Well I interviewed 2 of them and neither of them grabbed me like missy did. For me to trust my life and babies life in the hands of someone I sure as hell better have a 100% good feeling about her.So I am not going to shot gun pick someone just for the sake of having a home-birth.In this area its hard to come by a mid-wife i would feel comfortable with. At 36 weeks pregnant looking on internet for mid-wife profiles was OVERWHELMING! I guess that I just assumed Missy would not have a baby before me.. we both assumed that.. Oh well what birth ever goes 100% as planned.


Who will deliver my baby now?

Dr. Rampton was my back-up back-up plan. To have a hospital birth. now he is my "back up man" my only option...
I talked with him today sayin can trav do EVERYTHING,,, pratically use your room and your mind and tell him what to do. I dont want to be on my back while pushing. I want to keep my placenta.I dont want a IV... the list goes on..I want to have my baby and then go home. not stay there even a night. I left same day I had Nalia and LOVED it. He said whatever I want he is ok with and that he will only step in if needed. Elsewise trav will do it all.. along with Nalia helping, So PRAISE GOD i have such a sweet understanding Doc. God is so good!(YES i am going to capsulize my placenta and eat it once i put it into capsules.Google it for more info before you get too grossed out.=)...)

How am I feeling?...Sad, disappointed,, happy(missy is having her first baby)shocked, I mean I am 36 weeks pregnant and trying to find mid-wife last minute to deliver my baby is enough to throw me over the edge. I had Nalia at 37 weeks so I dont think this baby is gonna stay in me last 37 weeks if that. God knows I mean he can open and close doors.. and FOR ONCE i am not going to fight and try to call the shots...


BOTTOM LINE:
I am pregnant. I have a healthy baby. I will get to meet my baby soon no matter where I deliver her. I will be under great CARE at the hospital. Life has thrown me some curve balls.. and I am gonna take it with grace and class.. Not like a bitchy person saying why me. Its LIFE!! I can see the glass half full..God has my best interest at HEART i know that, Really... Not just saying the Christian thing. I have many ideals and this one has taken a drive off course...BUT my baby girl will be here before I know it.. WOOO HOOO i waited a LONG TIME. I cant wait!!


tell ya more when I can think....

36 weeks tomorrow (sunday)

So on thurs.(35 weeks of pregnancy) I had a app with missy and she told me that I am 1cm dilated, 80% effaced and at a plus 2 station. I am feeling very sure that next weekend between the 8-10th I will have my baby.She is just so low.. I mean LOW..where it feels like my pubic bone is broken.OUCH OUCH OUCH.

I feel very ready for labor, my butt is almost normal.. well as normal as it will be while i am pregnant.