9 months later and I am pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok so 5 days before my period I took a test. that is cause I am VERY impatient. All the other months I got alot better....But not this one.. I totally had a feeling that i was pregnant but I have had feelings that i were before...over the last 9 months..But i tell you..
THIS WAS DIFFERENT!I tested and the line was FAINT that i thought that I was mentally going insane to the point that I was telling myself that I was pregnant... So i went to my moms house and she could see the line. I didnt know what to believe.. I called Abby and she told me to take a picture but the 2nd line would not show up in pictures. I was DYING cause jessica was as practice and I almost ran down there and stopped practice but i said I cant be the CRAZY person...
So Thur. morning i tested with a dollar store test. Again it was positive. I then texted jessica and told her to get over to my house.. she was here with her trooper Ruby by 9:30am. She was later than i thought cause Nalia took a dump on the ground before shower time and that held us up from giving the clear to head over....
So she was very excited and i said what do I do.. she said
TEST AGAIN! HAHAHA
So since the pregnancy center here burnt down and was not working I was gonna head to albany and test there...But then i thought man will i have to get counseled about being pregnant again? plus I volunteer at the lebanon one...
Plan B from my side-kick... she called Alex and she had a extra test. We headed over there once trav left for work (
TRAV NEVER KNEW ANY OF THIS WAS GOING ON)
I tested and I was NEGATIVE...I confirmed in myself that I was full of it in my head then i wasnted to throw up and cry at the same time... But my side kick detective took the test a min later and said..
WAIT THERE IS A SECOND LINE APPEARING just then i swallowed my vomit and sucked in my tears...
Alex could see it and so did i. then i wondered if imagining things were contagious cause now they were seeing the 2nd line too...
this is what the test ended up looking like.....So I called the 1800 line and the guy assured me that I was pregnant. I believed it a little more.
Friday (3 days before I start)came around and I tested and it was still positive...
Tonight was the night I would tell trav...I wanted to SUPRISE HIM. So thur night I told him that I was meeting with my Mid-wife Missy to talk over some stuff that I Naturopathic doctor told me ...a LIE i know!
So this is what I made up ..the bold part is... the other part is a really scientific was of talking about pregnancy that jessica sent me. I modified the words to throw trav off when he would read it over dinner.
here it is....
Caylan, I enjoyed meeting yesterday at Starbucks. I am glad that after the saliva test and blood test we are closer to find what is seeming to cause over-flow of estrogen levels in your body. This is kind of hard to explain so I hope that this makes sense:
You have something that is somewhat common called HYB Positive. Higher levels of estrogen rise in the body and transport energy to the hyper yulba gland of the thyroid. It's as small as a sunflower seed but is very powerful. Over time things such as stress, rapid weight-loss, depression, excess exercising can spark something that can cause it to be a storm in the body.
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i wrote that)
this is what jessica sent me and i changed some wordsHuman reproduction is the result of the union of an egg (produced in the ovary) with a sperm (produced in the testis), giving rise to an embryo .
After sexual intercourse, the sperm are deposited in the vagina, from which they begin their journey from the outer cervical opening (the gate to the internal female reproductive system which is open and accessible during the fertile days) and progress through the cervical canal and the uterus reaching the fallopian tubes.
The fallopian tube also receives the newly ovulated egg via the fimbria, and is the site where the egg is fertilized by the sperm. The zygote is transported down the fallopian tube for the next 5-6 days during which time it divides into 2, 4, 6, 16 etc cells...(sometimes called a Molar Pregnancy)
When the embryo reaches the uterus it has developed into a blastocyst (60-120 cells), which is capable to implant in the
endometrium.
then after he read this out-loud cause I told him that I was too scared to read what the results were(another things to throw him off)
..................THEN I HANDED HIM A PAPER THAT SAID THIS...........................
I AM HYB
HAVING YOUR BABY
AND ITS POSITIVE!!!!!!!!!!
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he looked at the paper for like 30 seconds........ then starred longer......
then looked up at me and was like " YOUR PREGNANT?" with a HUGE SMILE!!
I WAS LIKE YYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSs!
this all went down at some place next to Big River called Bar 101 i think. Thanks to Denny for telling us to go there. My hamburger was SOOOOOOOOOOOO good!!
So over dinner we talked about the future baby....I loved it!!!!!
Now this is a personal thing.. PERSONAL PERSONAL!!I am telling people so soon that I am pregnant cause if I wait til 12 weeks like some people do after they miscarry I would be doubting that my baby will live to full term. When I tell people that I am pregnant this early that is me speaking it over myself that I am pregnant with a HEALTHY baby. That
I will NOT live in FEAR! I have a peace and ya know if something happens then I will have so much more support and prayer surrounding me ...God knows! i Trust him and I choose to walk in faith and not live in FEAR! this is just what I have to personally do so that i wont live in Fear over what could happen.....plus man how can I HOLD THIS IN!!
Oh and I really believe that it is a BOY!
I AM BLESSED
